Beloved
Two days ago, I finally met someone whom sort of understood what I really felt about myself. It was such a relief to read words that describe the confusion and dilemmas that I've tried for years to even know. Interestingly, he suffered depression. He is a Christian Catholic. He writes short books. Yay. And in his little book "Life of the Beloved", I saw myself. Ha and by the way, he wrote this book for his non Christian friend. Henri Nouwen . "Over the years, I have come to realise that the greatest trap in our life is not success, popularity or power, but self rejection . ... When we have come to believe in the voices that call us worthless and unlovable, then success, popularity and power are easily perceived as attractive solutions." I have hurdled from giving myself to others, caving and clocking quiet time, even joining staff to find myself happy but for a while, satisfied but again yearning for something more, spent and exhausted but still misundersto...
