Pre Wedding Blues
When I walked down the aisle, I was a very scared bride. I was very happy but also very scared. It would be the biggest decision of my life next to receiving Jesus and I have no idea what life would be like after that. Getting married has posed the toughest discipleship challenge in my life, more than living in a single parent family or joining staff. It is not so much about my other half as it is with myself. When I said 'yes', I typically thought of the white lovely gown and life with the one I love. But as the wedding date drew nearer, I remember myself not caring about the beauty of the special day and not even looking forward to our life together. In one of my most emotional times before the big day, I told God it felt like I was in Gethsamane. Where dreams, unborn, were buried. It wasn't cos my Dad didn't want to walk me down the aisle (he did finally thank God), nor because my Mum wasn't there. It wasn't cos we didn't have money to go to somew