Out of the Blue

Yesterday, I went for a jab and blood test (which is compulsory before I fly off to Mongolia). Spent a hefty $100+. And after that I could just feel my energy wain..bit by bit throughout the day. I was quiet during cell group when my brain was spinning more slowly than it already was usually (hee). Until my friend jabbed me with " Ya la..Campus Crusade is best at evengelism in a fixed way- four spiritual laws" I was so tired that I slept at 9:30pm. Earliest since I fell sick a few weeks back. And I awoke at 1am sigh.. Unable to sleep, I decided to do cover the rest of yesterday's devotional material. I'm doing "Experiencing God" and at the part talking about how the church experiences God. Dunno how but I'm just brought back to some thoughts I'd been having throughout the day. And it wasn't very good thoughts about people around me. Haiz.. the mind is really a battlefield. So, I confessed that in my journal and from my heart wafted this ...

It just happens that my birthday this year falls on Good Friday. Wow you know..for a while, I thought how special this is. Though I'm really thankful for my life, especially how I've been "fearfully and wonderfully made" Ps 139:14, I cannot help but feel sad on Good Friday. Because this is the day that Jesus died. I remember many years ago, one Thurday afternoon before Good Friday, my primary school teacher who taught us art classes told us that we should be quiet because it was a sad day. Jesus was going to be hung on the next day. This morning as my pastor preached from the Luke Chapter 23, I'm brought back through time to the cross, where Jesus hung. Stripped, whipped, and hung by nails on the cross, he bore my sins. "He was despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering. Like one from whom men hide their faces he was despised, and we esteemed him not." Isaiah 53:3 Feeling all the pain, injustice, hurt, and perhaps wo...

"My friend committed suicide." As I heard two of my friends relate about the death of their mutual friend, my heart weighed heavily. How much has the young girl gone through to decide she'd had enough and that death was the last and best resort? Loss of a friend, something so real and heartfel. How does one come to terms about it with God? While discussing this issue with a close friend, we realise that many a times we can innocently ignore stress signals that people around us show, or dismiss it with some kind words like, "it's ok,","take it easy","it'll be alright".. but perhaps it pays to pay more attention to some of these reactions. But of course with wisdom and discernment. So that we may not miss the opportunity to minister, and shine His light into poor soul. Suicides are seemingly on the rise. In the past few weeks, the papers have reported another two cases involving Singaporean families. It is not substantial a number ...